Sam (part 2)

Yes, i know...
You've heard enough about 'Sam'.
Well, sorry, but i have another update, to the whole situation. but first, i need to put in another song. well, this one is a phrase:


theres no destiny wen everyones ur enemy.

short, but the truth. i also have some funny sayings, that you might like:

I have lots of ideas. Trouble is, most of them suck.

ill put some more, next time i leave another post.

And now back to Sam.
Earlier, i left a post, saying that i had lost my chance. well... i made another one. Sam went on msn, as i was about to go, at 7pm and he said he was going, even though, he has only just gone on, and i told him not to. he did, then, about a second later, he went back on. i told him how i feel, and he said he needed some time to think about how he feels.. i told him to text me once he had made his mind up.

im still waiting on that text.....

i think ill just leave this now, until he texts... then i shal tell you, straight away ofcorse!!
grr, still waiting, at 20:31....
ok.. its 20:50... should i be worried?? i mean, i just sent him a text... not sure why.... im impatient like that. i want to know if hes worth it, or wether he is just stringing me along... that would really piss me off, lol.

ok.... 20:51... this is a minute blog at the mo' lol!!
im sorry..... nerves i guess...
20:51... tash just signed on.. the one in my year... gawd, im freaked.. what if he doesnt like me? what am i suposed to then? i need help. seriously. im gonna look up proffensional help on my friend the internet.. it will give me summit to do... ill get back to you with the results... its 20:54 by the way...

i didnt get anything good...
20:58.. now im freaked. im mean it. im shit scared. never been this nervey before...
one minute to nine... 2 hours since i told him. he should have made up his mind by now. oh god, hes trying to think how to break it to me nicely. oh, my life offiacilly sucks..

AHH, NINE OCLOCK..

SHIT.

im normal. well. nearly. ive just realised. im worrying about a GUY. not where im going to live, not wether mums ok or not. things are getting better. WOWEE
OK.

its six minutes past nine.. im officailly more freaked than i was before... holy shit.i dont know what im gonna do. what if he doesnt like me?
holy crap hes online. shit. what do i do? do i talk to him? or not?? AHH!!
ok, i said, um... hey.. no reply as of yet..
gawd, hes not even writing a messege... i am soo screwed... i mean seriously.
its been 3 minutes and nothing. i am soo freaked right now... HELP!!
oh god... please.. sam.... say anything
ok.. i just signed out of msn...he obviously doesnt want to talk to me. ill let you know tomorrow, i guess, whether or not i have a boyfriend, or ive ruined a friendship...
Bye...
x
ps my touch typing rocks!!