New day, New Life-but still no boyfriend.

Hey...
i wanna give you a name... i think ill call you..... David, from my favourite set of books... its just so it seems like im not talking to myself!!
Hello david.... dad rung me today, at 10ish!! my yoda ringtone woke me up!! grumble!
no news from sam.... but ill give him time.... AHH, MY SATS ARE ON TUESDAY!!
my inner tube on my front tire is bust again, so i went to get that fixed, but the guy wasnt there... so ill walk to school in the morining, and home, then ill get it sorted tuesday evening!
grr...
i am listening to 'stranger like me' im gonna listen to natasha bedingfield in a bit.. shes good!!
her new song ' i wanna have ur babies' is a bit odd... but whos to say whats odd and whats not!!
not me for certain.... im now talkiing to pablo... he rocks!! majorly!!!
i really cant help thinking of sam... what it would be like to have his arms around me.....!!!
wow!!! he just went online!! and as i was talking to pablo about him... weird!
woo!! go vansesa carleton!! 1000 miles is a WICKED SONG!! WAY!!
im talking to sam.. i convinced him to have his hair cut and he had it done today!! woop!
he looks better with short hair, believe me...
i asked him. again. how he feels.... im sorry ok? but im an impatiant kinda gal! holy crap i just said 'gal'.... i really need to get out more... oh look hes replied.
he said yeah. i may need a little more of tht... y'know, dont hold back!
grrr, hes 'still thinking'.... i swear, im gonna explode, or implode... either one i blow up!!
ok, once this song is finito, im gonna listen to some natasha bedingfield... i think i spelt tht right!
lol...
sam is confusing.. he just asked me if i like dogwalking???
hmm.....
hmm, intresting, sams going to be a dog walker... im a dogsitter, y'know... i look after buckley, my mate, laurens dog, shes a midwife, and works nights, so when shes too tired, or busy i take buckley for a walk, or feed him, tht stuff!!
WOW!! i cant wait until my birthday!!
i will be 14.... wow... officially 1 year older than sam.. he is year 8.. at cns... im i year 9 at hewett, OWNED!! lol..
the hewett is like pverrun with chavs....... their like rats, only harder to get rid of!!
lool!!
i can type well fast, and touch type!! yaay!! woop da loop!! lolgasm...
i hope one day this is a book, and if sam ever reads this, he will know how i felt about him. how strongly i felt about him.
grr... i had the way i put felt.... but i guess... if he doesnt say he likes me, then i will have to get over him... maybe go out with someone else!!
lol...
i hope it doesnt come to that, i dont want to hurt someone who actually cares about me!!
i just asked sam how long he will be thinking for....
he is writing back...
he says he doesnt know.. i didnt expect him too, i just want an answer!! all this waiting just irratates me!!
well..... im gonna leave this up, but not write for a bit, i need some time to think!!!!!!!!!
ooh, i know what i can do to pass the time!!
im gonna write a song... about sam!!

ok...
here goes....

i wish, i could write a song
with as much meaning,
and sense
as a songwriter
i wish i could paint a painting,
with as much colour
and fashion
as a painter,
but im sorry, just not gonna happen, i get it, ur thinking, well so am iii
just so you know, just so you know, im alone, all alone, and im thinking, about
why i cant paint, write, and now i know, the answer to all of this
is that until you've done thinking, about the question i put to yoooou,
then i can understand, but until ur done thinkin, im stuck, in this poool off time babe
i wish i could dream
with as much imagination
and humour,
as a dreamer
i wish i could win,
wish as much joy
and persistance
as a winner
but im sorry, just not gonna happen, i get it, ur thinking, well so am i,
just so you know, just so you know, im alone, all alone, and im thinking, about
why i cant dream, win, and now i know, the answer to all of this
is that until you've dont thinking, about the question i put to yoooou
then i can understand, but until ur done thinkin, im stuck in the poool of time babe
im sorry, but i said to yooou
i still get this feeling, wen im close to you,
and until it goes away
im stickin by yhoo,
thru the pain...
so thats whhy
i cant write,
paint
dream
and i caant win honey, so you and me, thats the question i put to yhoo that afternoon, and until i get my ANSWER
but im sorry, just not gonna happen, i get it, ur thinking, well so am i,
just so you know, just so you know, im alone, all alone, and im thinking, about
why i cant dream, win, and now i know, the answer to all of this
is that until you've dont thinking, about the question i put to yoooou
then i can understand, but until ur done thinkin, im stuck in the poool of time babe
until...
just so you know....
just so you
just so
just
Sorry.

well?? sorry david, for doing all those songs, i know they are no good, but i try!
well. im bored...sam is still offline.. and aparently still thinking.... grr!!
i didnt think it would take this long, y'know?
oh david, i wish the real david, from hewett was here... he was like my best friend... he used to be like my twin! but then we had a fight... we didnt talk for ages...we do now... but rarely...
i miss having that friendship. i have photos, of the amazing times we used to have.
but...
nothing lasts forever!
oh great, now im crying. wow.. i wish connor or david or pablo were here, to give me a hug, and say it'll all be ok... cuz thats what they do. they are my best friends. EVER.
i wish...
wishes came true!!
i stayed awake all last night... looking out my window for shooting stars... so i could make a wish... bet you cant guess what id wish for!!
hmm...
lol..ive been writing this on and off for the past 4 hours!! wowee!
brb lol.
back...
sam is still offline!!!
mega anoyance!!
well.... im bored!!
megareno!1
wow, i totally made that word up!!
ms mcgragh wants me to start talking in german... in class shes done that to us in french, saying it stimulates the brain... it does but somedays im just majorly tired, i cant cope with french or german in english let alone...well, french or 'deutsch'...
ill write you something in german david..
meine name ist hana oconnell... ich habe zwei schwester und zwei bruder, sandrine, bex, ben und tom, Sie ist... ok!!
im not awake enough to write anymore... maybe tomorrow??
oohhh, avril lavigne girlfriend!!
sehr gut song lol!!
i dont know song in german sorry!!
brb, gotta eat me some food!!
lol..
back.. i had sausages and noodles for dinner... twas' tasty!!
woo, i just watched docter who, im now discussing with a diferent sam.... we do this like every week!!
yay!!
its not on next week, because of the stupid eurovision song contest!! huff!!
docter who scares me sometimes, and i think next weeks one will... its about like, creepy scarecrows!!
ahh!!
but, i dunno... im now listening to taking back sunday, twenty twenty surgery... weird song lol!
that song is finished... now its make damn sure!! now this is a WICKED song!! WAY!
im way bored... way seems to be my word at the moment!!
lolage... as does that!!
i wish sam would go online... wow, if he ever reads this! wow, i will blush my cheeks off!! i mean proper!!
someone said, not eben seriously, that i lurve him, and i could FEEL MY CHEEKS BURNING! people actually asked me if i was sunburnt!
ahh!
woop woop?!
im still bored... and sam STILL isnt online!! everytime he goes on, im gonna ask him wether he has made up his mind or not..... this seems to be taking a while!!
im looking thru all my pictures, on bebo, and changing names, leaving comments, that kinda thing!!
its 20:58... im still uberbored... i have like, nothing to do!
i hope you liked the song i wrote earlier david... it was for sam... i think....
can u believe it, i made tht up, right off my head!!
i really should be a song writer!!
but not until i have my answer... i meant that to. my lifes on a standstill... and i have sats next week!! i better know by then!! otherwise..... i wont take them.
i wont do it.
i swear
i promise.
Forever
and a day... thats another one of my songs, forever and a day...!!
i might write it up sometime... not today though... i can feel depression kicking in.. this will not
be pritty.............
its 10 past nine... and still no sam... i wish he would go online... i really wanna know!!
im writing a song for pablo... heres the layout:

verse 1
verse 2
chorus 1
verse 3
verse 4
chorus 2
chorus 3

kk, well, he is hopefully going to send me the music, so i can work with it.... phew!!
this is gonna be very dificult!! ive never written a song for somebody else before!!
ok... well, im gonna put it in word, not on here, because im going to do rough copies and shit
Bye david!!
xxxxxxx