heya David!!
again, its been a while...
i told matty how i feel... felt.... but, he just wants to be friends... thats cool.. i think i was just pretending, y'know? for the sake of Bex, and The Plan
i made up with lucy now... feels weird... lol!!
i was having a 'fight' with lucy on bebo... i just deleted the picture... its just causing upset.. but she said i wrote stuff bout her family.. i think shes read this. i did say i hate simon.. we i do. but i dunno.. i regretted what i wrote, even the killing thing, that was just a depression thing.. a spur of the moment life isnt worth living thing.. i have tried to delete them, but i dont think i can. i didnt even remember writing that y'know...
i just bury and hide all the bad things away. im moving on in life.
Sam asked me to marry him. i pointed out the legal ramifications, so, he asked me out instead. he says he loves me. i told him id think about it. i think i should give him a chance. maybe, even if its a small one.
i play sudoku alot now... im gonna go on it, once ive finished this..
and guess what??
i wrote a happy song. about my friends. i called it *my glory Daiis*
its not about love, hate or death. its a good song. it felt nice to write it.
i found my auntie, and more relatives from island on bebo.. i found::
fionnagh cuz
maria auntie
michelle cuz
gav cuz
kim cuz
manny cuz in law married to fionnagh
and sum wicked pictures of hana, robyn, rayna, and aaron!!
i think im emptying the hate out of me... i realise, i have so many people to help me, that when i fall, ppl are there to hold my hand, and lift me up, and carry me for a while.
i think im gonna say yes to sam... hes a great guy.. im starting again. with my mum, my house, and my friends, my brothers and sister!!
im going to try delete the nasty things i said. for lucy, and hilary and chris's sake. but i just dont think im a part of their family anymore... but, i have my own family, so im ok.
ill miss them.. ill still see them, ofcorse!!! but.. maybe not as much?
and i think, although simon was extremely horrible, and nasty to me, and my mum, and still can be, i dont think i hate him. i still dont want to be near him. but, maybe its not as extreme.
i gotta go.. sudoku awaits!!!
Bye david
xXx
